My husband has been telling me that he's tired of seeing that Olallieberry Dutch Baby on my blog, so today I will change the recipe! What?
Yes, there is a recipe in this post-- and please feel free to scroll past my personal update on why I've been absent. Here goes:
Many of my followers/readers/friends know that I underwent major surgery on June 11th. I had a total left knee replacement. I checked into the hospital, like a brave little soldier-- iPad fully charged, with all my iMagazines downloaded. I factored in that there would be pain involved. I wrapped my mind around there being a six-inch scar down the middle of my knee. I carefully interviewed three orthopedic surgeons, and chose the one who has the best reputation in town.
The surgery was a success. Technically. There were some definite hiccups. Like, my epidural went a bit awry, so when a team of physical therapists insisted I stand up on my new knee within four hours of surgery-- they couldn't grasp my desperate pleas for mercy. My right leg was so numb (from the epidural) that I could not will it to move. The pain! Oh, the pain!
I had no idea I was capable of the guttural screams that came out of my throat-- and I was not giving birth! Once the epidural was removed, and I was given mega doses of gnarly pain meds, I began the arduous work of trying to walk with my new knee. I threw up a lot, and food lost any hint of interest to me. I was discharged on Day #4. The ride home, in the car, wasn't pleasant at all. Getting out of the car was difficult-- as any movement to my knee made those screams come back. I'm not gonna lie-- this is a worse pain than anything I have ever experienced!
The Baking Sheet". There's a lot of vanilla in this recipe, and it's what makes the recipe work. The cookies have a combination of shortening and butter, oatmeal (for texture), brown sugar and white chocolate chips-- all pantry staples.
Of course, you need salted peanuts.
The cookies were baked at 350F for 11-13 minutes. I tasted the first batch and thought the cookies were good-- but nothing earth shattering.
For batch #2, I sprinkled some extra sea salt on top.
Now, that's a good cookie! Yes, the salt was just what this cookie needed.
Where am I today? It was been 2-1/2 weeks since my surgery. Truth be told, the way I feel today, I am having seconds thoughts on my decision to have a knee replacement. Given the continuous pain, the horrible rash on my back (a reaction to the tape from the epidural), the nausea from the medication, a total loss of appetite-- I've definitely had better days. On the positive side, I have a fabulous physical therapist, who comes to my home three days a week. I, affectionately, call him my "Physical Terrorist".
That's another thing-- everyone told me to do my physical therapy, no matter what. Let me tell you, that I admire anyone who can endure the pain of having your knee bent to break up scar tissue. The screams that came from under the pillow that I placed over my face sounded like I was being skinned and flayed alive! My knee is pretty much frozen stiff, and I'm trying my hardest to get it to bend. Apparently, I am so paralyzed with anxiety and fear of pain that I'm causing my muscles to tighten. No matter how many pep talks I've had, I haven't had a miracle breakthrough. Is this a self-pity party? No! These are my honest feelings and angst. Every day, I feel a little bit better and I know that this shall pass.
My future recipes: I have three more weeks to work on my rehab, and plenty of time on my hands to write. Sadly, I can't cook or bake, because I'm still relying on my walker for stability and support. Plus, there's the lack of appetite thing that's going on. Hopefully, that will change-- and I can embrace the weight loss I'm having.
Thank you for listening to my surgery update. I do miss the world of Food Blogging, as this is my creative outlet. My husband and son have stepped up to the plate, to take care of my needs. I feel blessed and very thankful for that. Thank you to those of you who have sent me private emails, wishing me well. They truly do lift my spirits.
I miss not visiting my favorite blogs-- but in truth, food (at this time) has lost interest to me. I know this is a very temporary thing. Most importantly, so are the bouts of boredom, despair and hopelessness. I've been told this is perfectly normal. I am not giving up food blogging! I will be back!
Here's the printable cookie recipe card.